The Evolution of a Thinner Me

I don’t even know where this “quit cold turkey” phrase even originated from, but it’s just not for me… This weekend was probably the hardest for a lot of things - drinking, smoking, eating, lounging…  I understand that I can’t change all my habits in just a week or two… but in due time, something’s gotta give… I know things are changing at a very slow pace…

Gregg was right… you need FUEL to burn energy!! I learned that the hard way on Friday… All I ate throughout the day was 2 cereal bars… and maybe a half bottle of water… It’s hard when work gets in the way of eating… It’s pretty pathetic that I haven’t even made the time to TAKE THE LUNCH THAT I DESERVE but instead work through it! What, am I crazy?? So, this week, my goal is to leave work behind and indulge in whatever I have for lunch and not even THINK about work!! Last Friday’s workout was a bit of a struggle… No food = hardly any energy, and so I felt I had to work twice as hard… And pant three times as hard… and yes, I still smoked after the workout!! URGH!!! So as soon as I got home, I ate (ok, more like I inhaled) a salad with grilled chicken, a yogurt with granola bits and water (I’m loving water these days)… And felt great afterwards… very satisfied!

Later that night, we went to a bar to see a show… I didn’t smoke on the way to the bar… but I did smoke once I got there… and I had a BEER!! Urgh, I couldn’t help it, I needed something else in my hand besides the cigarette… and it was SO GOOD… and I ordered a light beer instead of my usual… and I had JUST the one beer… after that we went to shoot some pool and just ordered ice water… we were there for a while and I was okay not ordering any more alcohol, so I think that the one beer per outing rule will keep me happy for now… After talking with Janis, the Best Life Diet nutritionist, about my teeny weeny hiccup of beer, she re-assured me that it was “ok” as long as one beer didn’t beget another, and another, etc.  So THAT made me feel much better, and really took the pressure & the guilt off… I know I can’t just axe it out entirely, some people can and that’s GREAT!! But for me… all in moderation…

I even worked out a bit Saturday morning! Not as hard as Friday, but enough… and then my friend Eddie and I walked for 2 miles!  It was great, I felt awesome afterwards! It is so nice to walk with a buddy, I definitely encourage everyone to do so!!  You have time to chit chat, laugh, talk about life, it’s awesome! I never knew that having a workout buddy would be so much fun… I’m always used to doing everything independently, I guess!! Then I got home and was SO TIRED… I had to nap for a while before I went out to dinner… I really think all of this working out has really put my body into shock… It’s not used to all this moving and sweating and PAIN!! But my body WILL get used to it all and pretty soon it will be part of my life’s routine!! It’s definitely getting harder though… Sunday morning’s workout nearly killed me!! I thought I was going to have a heart attack, I was doing so much!! Sprint within 40 seconds! Do lunges & hold for 3 counts while holding this 6.6 lb weight ball over your head! Are they insane?! But I’m loving it, really! All I know is, I better at least get some rocking thighs in a few weeks, all those painful lunges!!

It’s getting harder, but I can already feel my body changing… or maybe just aching, but whatever it is… It actually feels kind of good… Even if I do workout with my stomach sucked in all the time, I know it’s getting me somewhere!! And it’s making me truly believe in myself, believe that I really DO have the power to change things in my life, as long as I stay focused and keep realistic goals… I AM INVINCIBLE!! Ha ha!!

So to re-cap, this week’s goal is to: MAKE TIME FOR LUNCH, BECAUSE I DESERVE IT & MY BODY NEEDS IT!!