Dreamgirl here! - Lakita's pursuit of "the bikini"

This is my second week of working out and I have to say that all around I feel so much better in every aspect – mentally and physically.  I believe that the Law of Static Friction states, it takes more energy to put a body in motion that it is to stay in motion, and boy is this true.  It was rough getting started and I don’t just mean physically.  I literally had to psych myself up for weeks before the New Year just to muster up enough motivation to begin exercising.  Let me tell you it didn’t get easier after the first workout either because after feeling sore for the first time it only confirmed all of the anticipated dread.  Every reason why I hated working out came to my mind – and my aching body.  But having done this before I knew that the worst thing I could do was to avoid working out again because that would only prolong the agony.  Working out when you’re sore actually burns of the lactic acid that makes you feel sore in the first place.  Today, however, after doing the same workout routine over these past two weeks, I barely feel sore and I’ve noticed that I have more energy and I sleep better at night – whatever that means when you have a 4 month old.  

My work out routine is 3 times a week and after the first week my biggest challenge now is finding reliable and trustworthy childcare – welcome to the world of motherhood.  Anyway, I was too tired last week to be able to workout in between scheduled workout sessions but I think next week I’m going to attempt to either do a video workout or walk on my ‘off’ days.  I already have a pedometer and from past experience, walking 10,000 steps a day really does the job in burning off a pound a week.  There’s snow on the ground right where I live right now, but thank God my wonderful husband bought me an elliptical machine for Christmas!  If I can just stay motivated I know I can do it.

My husband says that he has noticed a difference in my physical appearance but I just think he’s saying that to encourage me because I haven’t noticed any difference. I’m sure the scale would agree with me but I know that’s because I’m building muscle and of course you know what they say, ‘muscle weighs more than fat.’  I can’t wait to notice a significant difference, and this will come none too soon either.  I have almost resolved after being large for so long that I will always be this big and hopelessness is not a good feeling.