My part-time job: Falling off the Wagon |
I’m so good at it, I should get paid for it! Boooooo!! 
We are in our 11th week of the program and I can safely say that this has been the hardest… I am a yo-yo: One week I’m eating clean, healthy foods & working out like it’s nobody’s business and the next week (this week to be exact), I’m eating country fried steak & fried eggs & fried hashbrowns, licking the plate clean, adding creamy fat ice cream to my lunch and totally (and I’m not using this word loosely), yes TOTALLY ignoring my workouts… And I am PAYING for it this week… I’ve weighed myself and have discovered that I’ve gained BACK 3 lbs that I so gloriously lost… Can you believe that? That’s so insane… I’m so mad at myself! So mad, I think I’m going to eat EVERYTHING fried now!! URGH!!
But I’ll be okay… I have to, this is my life, remember? I’m the Master of it… So, as done before (I am queen of repeat behaviour, as you can see), I will again take responsibility for my falls these past few weeks and have to keep my fat 4th chin up and keep moving forward… I don’t care how long it takes, I am going to keep going and going and going… Don’t get me wrong, I still love my new fabulous body (it’s still there 
), it’s just 3 lbs MORE fabulous lol… and how bad is it that I’m fussing about 3 lousy lbs? Jeesh, these mad thoughts will drive you to tears…
This is when I realize that I can’t let THIS new life, this new thought process, control me… I’ve put the scale away and have set an electronic reminder on my calendar to weigh myself again in 3 weeks (for those who know me, y’all know I LIVE by my calendar, LOL).
I have faith that I will reach my weight goals in due time, but for now I’m going to have to accept the fact that I like to fall off the wagon from time to time and that I know that I have to work on my will power and discipline… The good thing about the Best Life Diet is that it completely STAYS WITH YOU It is engraved in your mind as part of your conscious, so you are aware of everything that you do! Every time you slip, every time you eat well, every time you break a sweat, every time you sit on the couch and channel surf, it’s in the back of your mind… or maybe it’s just GUILT?? LOL Well, whatever it is, it’s going to make me stronger, healthier and happier I’m sure of it!
Please tell me I’m not the only one slipping during this journey… LOL! Hard habits really are HARD to break! It’s driving me crazy, but it can be done, it WILL BE done!! I know it…
’til tuesday…
~ cecilia
