Dreamgirl here! - Lakita's pursuit of "the bikini"

Phase I of the Best Life Diet wasn’t that hard for me to master, aside from the working out that is!  My eating habits for the last several years, in general, has pretty much been absent of carbonated sodas and anything white –   white flour, white sugar, white potatoes, white pasta, etc.  But I have to admit, getting in the habit of eating a large breakfast and having meals at set times was, and continues to be, somewhat of a struggle. 

However, now that phase II has begun, I’m beginning to have cravings for things that I usually don’t eat, like doughnuts and cheeseburgers.  I don’t know what’s gotten into me?  I think I’m hungrier because of the vitamin supplements, the working out, and the nursing. but why can’t I crave watercress or Brussels sprouts?

The other day I weighed myself and after all this food deprivation and masochistic workouts the scale showed that I lost a whopping 2 pounds.  Boy was I mad! And discouraged to say the least.  So when I came back from working out my mind started to wonder off, ‘man I would love to have a thick crust pizza with all the toppings and extra cheese. . . no!  There’s a fast food place right over there at the next exit.  I’ll just stop and get a junior cheese burger.’  So I exit the freeway pull up to the drive thru window and just as I am about to order, my guilty conscience kicks in.  I felt like I was an alcoholic about to order a drink at the bar on my way home.  Boy was that a low moment.  So I ordered a fish filet with no tarter sauce and thru away the bun (okay I kept the side of the bun that the cheese was stuck to).  By the time my next workout came around, two days later, my conscience was seared!  I didn’t even wait until after the workout, I drove straight to the doughnut shop and got a chocolate glazed doughnut.  I couldn’t wait to taste it.  But wouldn’t you know it. . .  it wasn’t even that good!  I was sooo mad.  If I was going to thoroughly blow my diet at least let the crime be enjoyable.  I guess I deserved it.  Next time, however, I got a cinnamon role, and it was good too.  But the guilt was overwhelming so I stopped by the health food store on my way back home from the gym to buy organic soup.  I ate a serving when I got home and to be honest, it tasted better than the cinnamon roll and I felt a whole lot better about myself. 

It’s not that I don’t have healthy snacks at home to munch on when I have a craving.  It’s just for some odd reason I’m craving things that I wouldn’t ordinarily even consider. Hmmm I’ll have to give this some thought.  This isn’t a habit but it is something to think about.