The Evolution of a Thinner Me

So, I’m looking for my energy… where has it gone? I thought that when you become more active and eat more, you’ll have more energy? But since I’ve started this journey, I feel like all I ever want to do is sleep!! Is it because I’m more active? Is my body still in shock with all this motion? Maybe it’s because I’m eating all the time, I mean I really feel like I’m eating ALL the time… breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner… water, water, water!! Marsha, Marsha, Marsha!! Yes, tonight I’m feeling like a whiner… I don’t know, but I’ve been hauling trucks trying to get up in the morning… Eh, I guess or I hope my body will catch up eventually…

This is the heaviest I’ve been all my life… although it’s been a steady ride for maybe the past 3-4 years… I haven’t really “done” anything real to change it… and now I am and I’m already getting tired… My brain is working overtime being so darn “conscious” of EVERY LITTLE THING that I do… I mean, I am parking further from the front door of my job, just to get some walking in… I am conscious of time and food… what time is it? is it too early for a snack from breakfast? Is it too early for lunch? OMG, it’s 9pm and I’m eating cereal?!! I’m standing in front of the vending machine at work, trying to think if there’s ANYTHING in there that is even close to being relatively healthy and realizing that all I can really get out of there are crackers… simple, salted 30 cent crackers… What’s happening to me?! It’s kind of driving me crazy and it’s only been 2 weeks!!

Urgh… but I do have some short-term goals… and I’m slowly kind of just picking them up as I find them… One of them is to run an annual 8K run or 5k fitness run at the end of March… Yes, at the end of March!! Those marathon running type of things have always intimidated me, I would always say that I’d participate… but in the audience, cheering everyone else on! But now, my friend Chrissy encouraged me to join her… And as intimidating as it may be, I decided to register! There’s no time like the present, aye?? So what if it may take me 3 hours to run 5 miles, I’m already proud of the fact the I signed up! And the cool thing? I’ve sent out an e-mail to my family and friends letting them know that I’m doing this run and have encouraged them to sign up too! And a handful of people have or are already registered!! How cool is that?!! Sharing is Caring… Awh, it really is though!! I can’t stress it enough, but once you share your thoughts and goals with those that you love, the feedback will amaze you! The support and simple words of encouragement are the best! My friend Cleo texts me every other morning just to tell me that I can reach my goal! My friend Eddie e-mails me to tell me to get the cigarette out of my mouth! That’s the great thing about texting… it’s a simple electronic thought from someone And it really helps you stay on track when someone is reminding you of your goal… gotta love it!

So now, all these conscious thoughts and movements have a purpose… and now I will move forward in my daily life with a new goal to reach!! Yes!! And so it continues… The Evolution of a Thinner Me