Why my life will no longer be a (whole) box of chocolates |
This past week really made me realize why I am doing the Best Life program. I had a trade show in New York and had to pack for 4 days. I’m in the fashion business and had to look it, plus be comfortable enough to focus on business, looking and feeling good. Well, the amount of time it took to find things to wear that were comfortable, weren’t too tight and made me look great…Let’s just say that I didn’t get much sleep the night I packed. This is stupid! I have plenty of clothes in plenty of sizes and nothing to wear? And let’s face it, if I’m not comfortable and focusing on potential clients because my pants are riding up where the sun don’t shine…What a waste of time, sleep, money and effort.
Another motivator for me is if I’m comfortable and not trying to camouflage a body part, I can focus on the person or persons I’m with (or activity I’m doing) 100%. Imagine that–being in the moment and not having to think about “sucking it in” or pulling down my shirt so my muffin top doesn’t show.
And let’s talk about fashion. Dressing is a creative form of expressing myself. It would be fun to dress more like I feel and not be as limited to certain shapes and proportions. That doesn’t mean following trends as much as being more of who I am. And I really don’t think of myself as fat. Yep, I’m using the word “fat” rather than being politically correct ’cause that’s what it is. Although I accept myself and others at any size I just don’t feel at home in this current body. It’s not athletic and well-maintained enough for me. It really is about looking and feeling more like myself. This body reflects my lack of self care. And I don’t want to be forced to change by a health crisis either.
These gals are the best group of teammates I could ask for. They’re funny and enthusiastic and very committed to all of our success. Although we’re so different, I sometimes feel like I’m hearing or reading my own thoughts when they share theirs. We’re more alike than different. Have the same insecurities. And we’ll all share the joy when we reach our goals because there’s so much support and joy now, at the very beginning of this 3 month experience.
I’m so thankful for all of you–Lakita, Anna, Mary Ellen, Veronica, Cecilia–and all of you joining us in this Best Life extravaganza. United we lose–and win at the same time. Divided, I would just sit in front of the TV, eat, and get fatter.
Tomorrow night I have my first workout with the group. I hope I don’t have to hire someone to type in my next journal entry or answer your comments because my arms are numb. Or worse.
Good luck to all of you. And a good night.
January 12th, 2007 at 8:31 am
Marna… Just remember…”like is like a box of chocolates, you never know what your gonna get!” hahaha When I read this, that was the first thing to mind! Oh, come on, look at the time, I just woke up!
January 12th, 2007 at 8:35 am
Oh I got a typo in my Forrest Quote.. but you know what I mean! Seriously Though Marna….Nothing is ever a waste of time no matter what you do in your life…. Just know, that when you start working out, you are gonna feel like you want to give up (I know I did) but look at how far you come and how hard you been working…. you will realize that giving up is not an option!
Love Ya!
January 12th, 2007 at 11:14 am
Marna I am so with you on being in the moment. I don’t remember a single time someone took a picture of me where I wasn’t sucking it in, quickly moving to my “good side”…or using a purse or bag to cover something. And in 25 years we are going to look back on those pictures and these years and think “why didn’t I take advantage of being able to have a great body when I could have!”. I have spent many a night packing for business trips and it can be excruciating. Heaven forbid you need to buy clothes on the trip if your luggage doesn’t make it! Life will be so much easier when I’m fitter. GUARANTEED.
See you Sunday! I just worked out with Veronica and Greg pushed us to another level today…so great.
Mary Ellen
January 12th, 2007 at 11:23 am
Thanks for the words of encouragement, Anna. But really, won’t life be grande (say it with an accent) when we can go to our closets and not spend a ton of time, and stress , when we have to go to an event. Or pack for a trip, carry-on no less. And know we’ll be really comfortable and look OUR MOST fabulous.
I’ve never known what it’s like to buy really good clothes that fit beautifully and fit into them for a long time. When someone can wear a basic size, and not have 3 or 4 sizes (or more), just in case, I’m so amazed. That’s why I love accessories, ’cause they always fit (except for belts)!
January 12th, 2007 at 11:29 am
So glad you can relate, Mary Ellen. When I saw my yoplaitbikini photos the first thing I thought was “why didn’t I suck it in and pull down my sweater so my gut didn’t show so much!
Sorry I missed you this morning. I’m working out tonight. But I’ll see you Sunday. Have a great weekend til then.
January 13th, 2007 at 5:12 pm
Girl, you did FANTASTIC on Friday!! I love that we are all working out together and sharing the blood, sweat and tears of the BLD program! It’s crazy, but WE’RE WORTH IT!! You are a great inspiration to me, as I hope to have the drive, energy and personality that you exude at 55!! See you tomorrow!!
January 14th, 2007 at 2:32 am
Cecilia, thanks a whole lot for the encouragement and compliment. Yeah, I’ll be working out tomorrow. I’ll be the one in the body cast.